Fail!

Okay, so it's getting late & I realized that I never blogged today. I'm sitting here working on wedding stuff. Really just focused on a photographer. It's the last big piece & I think I'm going to end up with someone FAR more pricey that I anticipated but I was referred to this woman by a friend. Her pics are really edgy & different. So I'm really considering going with her. Check her out: Wendy Bunch Photography What did you gals pay for your photographer? I'm so curious...okay nosy :) lol

Today was a decent day. We trained this morning (old program still) & did a fast clip on the treadie. Food's been great but something seems to have well disrupted things internally (TMI?!?) I took some Phazyme & waiting for it to "pass." OMG, I crack myself up! Bwahahaha!

I was a the store at lunch & was finding myself being judgemental towards a man with his overweight daughter. She was picking out a bunch of crap food. I'm so not against an occasional yummy treat. I make no secret of my love of the HFCS-to-the-max candy corn so I'm not food snob. But this girl was clearly not in need of the 3 boxes of Poptarts jammed in the cart. I think more than anything it made me sad. I was a big kid but not because my parents let me eat that crap. Ah well..that's my beef of the day!

Anyone watching More to Love? Some of these girls are amazing, confident women yet some are just not ready to be comfortable with themselves yet. I'm all about self-love & confidence but gosh some of them are just NOT good examples of that. AND I just have to say that I'm finding Luke-ol-boy to be a bit of a playa playa! Anyone feel me?

I think that's it for the night. I'll leave you with a hot piece of, er, baseball player!



Yes, yes, I'm a Chicago girl & love me some White Sox baseball but who doesn't love a little Derek Jeter?!? Okay, you can't really tell that's who it is but it is...trust me! lol

Have a FANTASTIC night all & I'll see you on the flipside :)

No pressure!

Ah the joys of Monday & preferring to just stay in bed when the dreaded alarm goes off. BUT I still got up (okay, Kevin made me!) & got myself to the gym! Sadly, my fun shoes on Saturday night left me with some raw spots on my feet so there was no running today. We rode the bike & did some abs!

I'm in search of a new training program for us too! Any ideas on where to find a good one? I'll be looking at fitness sites shortly.

This weekend, I rejoined Weight Watchers & I swear I just love Kristy (our leader.) I swear they remember you & are just as encouraging as ever! I learned something too! Did you know....

....for every pound you lose, you relieve 4 pounds of pressure off your knees!!

Isnt that crazy?!? I am still at over 100 pounds lost. My poor knees, right?!? That's what I love. Forgive the expression but I always remember this... "You can fix fat!" Perhaps it's a little rude but it is what it is!

We had a good weekend, enjoyed some goodies, watched some UFC, & tried to keep cool! It was crazy hot here this weekend!

I think that's all I've got for the moment! I'm moving along with wedding planning though & we've finalized a shower date! And I've booked my DJ for the reception! Gotta love when things fall into place!

So....what have you done to feel good about YOU today?

Game on!

Happy Thursday! It's almost as good as being Friday, eh? I've been trying to entertain myself today but both Twitter & Facebook were on the fritz. Bizarro!

So, I've been reading blogs, thinking lots & bantering with friends via email. I do have some work to do with union reports coming due so I've been working on that stuff too!

My happy news is that we've confirmed our travel dates to go see Kevin's sister & her family. Namely their new daughter Emma (the little one that I posted around July 4th!) Super excited about that. It'll be our longest trip to date with 4.5 hours in the car (until we stop overnight.) But we'll have one day that is almost 6 hours! It should be good folks! lol

Back to me.....we knocked out our training this morning, added ab work & took out the 20 min cardio blast. Our legs were a bit tired & since we plan to run in the morning it was a good idea.

I was looking at old training journals this weekend & was floored at the amount of cardio I used to do. But you know what? I enjoyed it. I did 30 minutes on training days & 45-60 min on other days with 1-2 days off a week. Maybe that's what my body needed to maintain (which is where I was in my weight loss journey.)

I'm really struggling, I will be honest, about the extra weight. I think it's affecting my running with some aches & pains. I feel like it NEEDS to go for me to feel better. I've debated going back to Weight Watchers. I'm still a Lifetime member & just need to get back to goal to be in good standing (meaning I dont have to pay.) I still get their emails & they had a good deal on the monthly pass they offer (it would be $20 for the first month & then is $40 after that.) BUT I need to commit to weekly meetings again but I feel a bit of shame about being heavier. I'm NOT the first Lifer to have this happen & certainly wont be the last either! And I know that mine was a result of contest dieting..NOT overeating or binging. It doesnt really matter though...they dont ask. You know what they say? "It's great to see you again, Heather! Are you still running?" Yep, they remember me! So we'll see what I decide but I NEED to take ACTION!

If I do..this should go on my fridge! hehehe



Now please dont mistake what I'm saying today as whining. It's not. It's just my reality. I've been eating well, dropped a few but it fluctuates. I feel like eating intuitively without counting somehow isnt really going to get me where I am comfortable. That was my realization the other night. Something must be done. I'm the ONLY one that can do it & I know what/how to make it happen.

So with that said.......GAME ON!

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Before I go, I wanted to send you to a new blog by a my friend Krys called Musings from Mom School! You'll love her writing style, wit & like me....yesterday I realized I forgot to take my vitamins! hahaha! Check her out when you get some time!

Wordless Wednesday (courtesy of Nike Women)

Sadness

I know many of you read the blogs that I have linked to the right. If that's the case, then you know of the passing of Meghann's sweet dog Abbie & also that of Andrea's precious Winston. Both of those really broke my heart as a pet lover & I cuddled with my little guy more that night. Okay, we all know cat's so it was kinda forced :)



But one tragedy that you may not be aware of is the death of Jen's Mom. As you can imagine, reading about this REALLY hit home for me after just going through the 3 year anniversary of my own Mom's death. My heart broke & I can just remember than hurt & pain all over again. You can read about the tragedy here. Her Mom sounded like an amazing person with a heart of gold. My continued prayers go out to Jen & her family.

I just had to share these sad stories because somehow the blog community has an amazing bond. So share some love, say a prayer, send some comforting thoughts, etc.

Spare time?

Got a few extra minutes that you need to waste? Help my friend Lisa out & answer her little survey!!

You'll find out what color my wedding dress is if you do ;) LOL

Back in the saddle!

Okay, it's Monday & while I'd rather be home resting from the busy weekend, I'm not. I'm in the office watching an auditor go through our files to ensure that we've paid state taxes properly. No biggie right? Well, it's not other than the fact that I knew the auditor in my college party days! hahahaha

Let's talk about the weekend, shall we? We spent 2 days in Champaign, IL with Kevin's brother's family. Had a great visit, drank some beer, had some good food, did a mini-baking session & took the paddle boat out for a bit (think Flintstones peddaling!) Good times!

Saturday we left there & were (very last minute) headed to the White Sox vs. the Yankees game! So fun! Thanks to Kevin's roommate for the tickets (he got them from a customer..that we actually sat with.) We had a great time watching the Yankees get spanked 14-4!!!! Take that with a little love from the boys on the South Side!

Yesterday we had a Welcome Home party for Kevin's friend who's been working with Operation Iraqi Freedom in Kuwait. He's safely home now! It was a good time & I definitely had too much wine. Couple that with not enough food & I was NOT getting up for the gym this morning!

What else?!? Workouts have been spot on lately & my eats have been okay. I had a couple days of mindless munching but really that compared to full on binges that I've had in the past & it really wasnt a big deal IMO.

I did hit a point the other night after doing that though when I realized that I just can't keep certain things in the house. Does anyone else do that? It's not that I wolf it all down right away. Heck the candy corn was in the house for a week without me even touching it but once I start picking it's all gone shortly thereafter. It's a very different mindset from when I was binging but I still feel like it's a bit disordered.

I'm also frustrated with not being able to really get this extra weight off. I really struggle at counting calories again but wonder if I just need to do it. I'd actually count points since that's easier but I am still protesting I think. I have been eating well & just sticking around the same weight regardless. We talked about it while walking yesterday & Kevin thought maybe I could talk to a nutritionist. I'm not sure since I really have a good knowledge of nutrition but we'll see.

Gosh, I'm totally rambling right now. I just want to get back to where I was pre-contest. Nothing unhealthy. I'm not cutting out any food groups, etc. No low-carbs, no-carbs BS.

I hope you all had a great weekend! Will definitely be getting back to daily blogging. Some purpose....some nonsense....but always honest & just me :)