Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Trying.

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much. - Mother Teresa Of Calcutta

Seems fitting for not only myself but another friend (actually two) at the moment. I have been doing okay but it seems that everywhere I turn I run into a brick wall. Pregnancies everywhere, baby showers, stuff in general. A friend's husband OD'd...again. And today a very good friend called to tell me they were also unable to find their baby's heartbeat. :( My heart breaks for her. There was a group of Kevin's friends that got married in a row (we were #2.) All of us were pregnant (in reverse wedding order) then I miscarried & now the first married couple has also miscarried (she was 2 weeks behind me.)

I'm having a hard time because I still feel in limbo. I'm finally getting a negative HPT (doing them weekly as it's my only sign of dropped levels.) So I am thinking that I'm ovulating now & will start in the next 2 weeks. Fingers crossed. We'll start trying after that period.

I guess that's it. Nothing upbeat, nothing exciting, just being right now but I thought I'd update with that.


Thank you all so much for your thoughts, prayers & comments.

6 comments:

vanessa40 said...

Heather,
I am so sorry. I had no idea. I have not been on my blog in ages or at O2. Please know you are in my prayers.
Please take care.
Love you

Tina @ Faith Fitness Fun said...

I've been thinking and praying for you a lot lately. You've really been on my heart. I hope you will be able to start trying soon. Love you.

Mellissa said...

It seems that when it rains it pours and I have had similar news all around me. Thinking about you!

Anonymous said...

Fitting quote, must really hit home for you honey. Time will ease your pain my friend. Love ya girl.

Kim @ Imperfectly Perfect said...

Thinking of you....I know that time is going to heal and bring many positive things your way. XOXO

Krystal said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I also miscarried before 3 months before I was got pregnant with my now 9 month old. It was one of the worst things I have been through. You will conceive again soon! Good Luck! ~Krystal for O2 site :)