Thursday, October 22, 2009
Morning! I keep apologizing for not blogging as much but sometimes life just puts distractions in your way! I'm just a couple days away from my bridal shower & have been CONSUMED by anxiety! First though, isn't that cake the cutest? lol I've had some fun looking a different cakes online..both good, bad & downright sad!
I'm so so excited my shower & cannot believe I'll be married in a little over 4 months! But with that comes the fact that I'm facing this very exciting time in my life without my Mom. What woman dreams of her wedding & thinks "well, Mom might not be alive." Not to sound cold but it's true. I'm so anxious about how the day will go or really how I'll do without her there that it's driving me nuts. I'm not eating like I should be (not junk..just not enough) and I have a really hard time falling asleep. I don't mean to sound negative & take away from the fact that so many people that I care about will be there for me that day. It is hard though to think of the people that cannot make it. First & foremost is my Mom but also an aunt that I'm close with just isn't able to make it (she tried soooo hard too!) along with a few others.
I fully intend to have a glass of wine while I'm getting ready and that will happen after we get in a run or a good workout that morning! It's a necessary!!!! Kevin's Mom has also having wine served! LOL!! I'm not going to be crocked but the wine will help calm my nerves. Girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do right?!?
Soooooooooooooooooo. How about Biggest Loser? I will be completely honest. I'm just not feeling this season. I cannot pinpoint why but I'm not into it like I've been in the past. The players I'm most interested in are Shay (I feel for her with having lost her Mom & being fearful of repeating that fate), Abby (who lost her entire family) & Daniel (he's fighting for his life!) Otherwise, the rest are just lukewarm to me. Tracy? Meh, I guess she keeps things humorous! lol
My own progress continues! I ended up dropping another pound for my "actual" weekly check-in (Saturday) & have now dropped 8 pounds since the start of TBL. It may not sound like much but I didn't have a great deal to lose anyway. I'm VERY happy with my results & am feeling really good. Though tired this week for obvious reasons.
How is everyone doing? Spill it :)
And I promise for a proper shower recap & pictures sometime next week!