Thursday, October 22, 2009

Distracted.


Morning! I keep apologizing for not blogging as much but sometimes life just puts distractions in your way! I'm just a couple days away from my bridal shower & have been CONSUMED by anxiety! First though, isn't that cake the cutest? lol I've had some fun looking a different cakes online..both good, bad & downright sad!

I'm so so excited my shower & cannot believe I'll be married in a little over 4 months! But with that comes the fact that I'm facing this very exciting time in my life without my Mom. What woman dreams of her wedding & thinks "well, Mom might not be alive." Not to sound cold but it's true. I'm so anxious about how the day will go or really how I'll do without her there that it's driving me nuts. I'm not eating like I should be (not junk..just not enough) and I have a really hard time falling asleep. I don't mean to sound negative & take away from the fact that so many people that I care about will be there for me that day. It is hard though to think of the people that cannot make it. First & foremost is my Mom but also an aunt that I'm close with just isn't able to make it (she tried soooo hard too!) along with a few others.

I fully intend to have a glass of wine while I'm getting ready and that will happen after we get in a run or a good workout that morning! It's a necessary!!!! Kevin's Mom has also having wine served! LOL!! I'm not going to be crocked but the wine will help calm my nerves. Girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do right?!?

Soooooooooooooooooo. How about Biggest Loser? I will be completely honest. I'm just not feeling this season. I cannot pinpoint why but I'm not into it like I've been in the past. The players I'm most interested in are Shay (I feel for her with having lost her Mom & being fearful of repeating that fate), Abby (who lost her entire family) & Daniel (he's fighting for his life!) Otherwise, the rest are just lukewarm to me. Tracy? Meh, I guess she keeps things humorous! lol

My own progress continues! I ended up dropping another pound for my "actual" weekly check-in (Saturday) & have now dropped 8 pounds since the start of TBL. It may not sound like much but I didn't have a great deal to lose anyway. I'm VERY happy with my results & am feeling really good. Though tired this week for obvious reasons.

How is everyone doing? Spill it :)

And I promise for a proper shower recap & pictures sometime next week!

Take care!!!

7 comments:

Christina said...

8 lbs is GREAT!!!! Especially when things were holding steady more or less for awhile. Good job Heather!

And enjoy that wine this weekend. Girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do is right. Hugs to you.

Trainer T.s Fitness said...

Wow! Congrats on the 8lbs thats wonderful!!!

I am having trouble with the BL this time too but I think its like you said the cast.

Im not seeing the desire or its just me.

Your shower will be wonderful so enjoy these moments in your life....they are a once in a life time and you deserve to focus on that so be happy for yourself.
((hugs))Can't wait for pictures!

Mellissa said...

Great job on 8lbs! Enjoy the shower this weekend, take a few deep breaths and have a glass of wine and put your best smile on :)

Anonymous said...

8lbs is awesome. You make it "sound" so minimal but we all know to well hoe easy it would be for that to be +8lbs (or maybe it's just me, lol).

As for me I am down 1lb for a total of 7lbs since the biggest looser. I didn't record my weight last week because I was bummed about a gain.

Nichole

Jen said...

Congrats on your 8 lbs, Heather!

And I agree with you about TBL...I was even thinking that same sentiment Tuesday nite as I caught the last hour of the show (I am at boxing from 6:30-7:30 and get home just before 8).

Can't wait to hear about your shower and what the surprise theme turns out to be!

Continue to enjoy all the wedding prep planning and know that your mom is ALWAYS right there with you ~ she knows you couldn't do it without her! And vino is always recommended for the calming of nerves! :)

Deb said...

Quick report from me, down a total of 3 lbs since beginning of TBL. Very slow but still progressing along.

Heather, sorry you are so anxious about the shower and wedding. Just remember, it's the marriage that matters the most, not the wedding. Have that glass of wine and chill out, you are marrying your life partner. What could be better than that?

You Mom will be there watching you and smiling the whole time!

Krystal said...

you're not into it because it's not wedding-related! ;)