Thursday, November 19, 2009
Finally, I'm feeling the mojo again! I just was busy then sick then nothing to say. It's just not like me!!! But I'm starting to feel human again though not 100% just yet. My first round of antibiotics are just about in my system (2 more days) then I debated starting round 2. Why? Because I wanted to have wine on Thanksgiving! lol BUT I would RATHER hold my sweet soon-to-be niece instead. She's almost 5 months old & I do not want to give her my cooties. Soooooo, I'll put on my big girl panties, love on baby Emma & just have one glass of wine!
My progress had come to screeching halt in the last few weeks. First was my shower & weekend with family along with all that entails (really really good food!), monthly cycle (held a TON of water this month), our "buffer" wedding (which btw just means they were our buffer before marriage. It was them first, then us, then other friends.) THEN I got sick. I am not like most people who drop when they are sick. I gain or maintain. Why? Because I'm barely hungry but know that 1) medicine makes me sick & 2) my blood sugar will bottom if I don't eat. So I force down whatever I want. I nursed a frozen pizza for 3 days, had a lot of cranberry juice (thank you UTI) & lots of fruit. As of this morning, I'm only up 1.5 from where I was at my lowest before the shower. No biggie though....I've totally had fun :) Well, minus the post wedding hangover (hahahahaha.) I also had not been to the gym for a full week (yes, it killed me but I was a smart sick girl this time.) I just went back & have done LIGHT cardio the last few days.
Do you ever just get sick of even worrying about it? I had a conversation with a friend yesterday about that. She's not lost the "last 10 pounds" after she had her son. She said she started to become really obsessive about it but finally realized that she's doing everything right...she's active (walks or does the elliptical almost daily), eats very well most days & enjoys her life. Soooo many people do not have that. Why? Is being thin worth all of that? When was the last time someone asked you how much you weighed or what size your jeans were? Even when doing the figure shows, yes, we tracked weight loss for progress but that was not always the best gauge of how you were doing. What was you ask? The MIRROR!!!! It was all about how you looked. I told my best friend the other night how much I weighed & she did not believe me! It just doesn't matter. Do you look good? Feel good? Are you healthy? Start thinking about that instead of the number on the scale!! That said, I will confess that I do get on the scale every morning. It's a gauge though it does tick me off sometimes but what I no longer let it do is send me into a downward spiral!
Think about how you live your life. Are you in control or letting something else affect your whole day? (yes, like the scale.) Are you enjoying the things you love the most? Have the darn apple fritter (wait, was that a confession?!? lol) if it's what you really want. It may save you from overdoing it on something you didn't really want later.
Whew, I'm getting a little rambly but you get the point.
And one last request as you finish reading. Please say a prayer for Candace's family as they say their final farewells today. My heart goes out to them & I just pray for God's comforting hand in their lives!
Enjoy your day!
ps...I just like that picture. It has nothhing to do with the blog :) lol