Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Thick legs, in shape, rump shaking both ways.....

Let me share with you the first song in my workout today. Killer session on the elliptical which left me a sweaty beast by the end. I think Kevin was kinda grossed out. Haha! Anyway......I present you Missy Elliott!


I LOVE this song! Does everyone remember when Missy got skinny? This was the first song that came out. Love her first line (clipped for title.)

Anyway, it's a kick-ass song & really got my blood pumping. What songs do that for you? I have a lot but usually the first one I hear during my workout sticks. Well, that & anything that I hear by LL (I have dates with him pretty regularly!)

I wanted to share an epiphany moment with you all. I've been working the "K-Factor" lately (tease tease tease) which is all about eating real food, moving daily & enjoying life. You could call it living large if you'd like. But with that, I'm finding myself feeling pretty liberated & letting go of some "rules" that stick in my head. Not all of them are gone & I get some tough love (not complaining) when they creep in but it's been really good to work through. I'm enjoying the part where I find my way back to who I once was.

So I come to last night when I was at a party (home decor) at a friend's house. She always makes awesome goodies so I fed hubby & didn't eat with him knowing that I was going to enjoy some good eats. I went in with a plan to enjoy one piece of each item I wanted (there were 4 items.) So I had some tortilla chips with salsa, small piece of veggie pizza (the cold kind) & a few dessert treats. I enjoyed every bite. I wasn't stuffed. I didn't feel guilt over what I ate. I had fun with my friends & enjoyed some good eats. Towards the end of the party, I got hungry again so had a few more chips with salsa (homemade & SO good!) But as I did that I sat back & watched my surroundings. That being my friends piling food on their plates.

It really took my head back to where I once was with binging & bad behaviors. I remember when the food hiding started (when my brother died) & doing that at the age of 10 is baffling to me but you know we adapt & create comfort where we can. That's what I did & I was instantly grateful that I could be around that food, enjoy a small portion of it to be satisified & walk away.

That suddenly got deep. Ha! Sorry but it was something that was heavily on my mind this morning. I even told Kevin about it when I got home. We met when I'd already lost over 100 pounds so he never knew that part of me. He's been through a lot with me during contest diet, post-show stuff, etc. But he never fails to tell me that he's proud of me. What a fabulous cheerleader (he's one of a few than are so encouraging to me daily.)

With that, I leave you with a picture of us from the wedding Saturday. My hair is straight but my stylist curled it for me after she cut it. Super fun!!! I need to mention that I felt awesome that night & got TONS of compliments ;)
Have a fabulous day!

6 comments:

The Kelley Family said...

LOVE the picture!! Your hair looks amazing!!!!

Kathi said...

Heather,

I can SO relate to your struggles and I find it interesting that we both are on the same path at this moment. It give me a small sense of peace that I am not on this journey alone.
You look fabulous and perfect just the way you are! I am so proud of you.
Keep up the great work and continue to love yourself because you deserve it.

Your beautiful!

kathi

Heather said...

Aw, thanks Alicia :) It didn't last past morning! lol

Kathi, I really appreciate your encouragement & believe me when I say I'm doing my thing! I'm working hard to get back to where I felt the best & not to fit some image that is unrealistic. I'm glad to see that you are doing the same :)

Keely said...

Big Smiles! You look great! But what is so much more important is you felt great! I just read somewhere (ahem) that this girl is trying to get back the body she had 3 years ago, then she would be happy. She has been striving for it for 3 years and hasn't been happy. What a waste.

You are so happy in the skin you are in right now-it makes you want to make smart choices and be nice to your body doesn't it?

Diet was (by some standards-not mine of course) 'off' last night and look, the world didn't end, you didn't gain weight and you enjoyed yourself without being mad in the morning. well done!

Dotsie said...
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Dotsie said...

You look so pretty in that picture! I have a lot of catching up to do in your blog..eek! lol